Starting a New Category: Foster

The failure of our nation to take care of the people living here leads to an inevitable crisis for animals. Around here shelters are overwhelmed, and people who have lost their homes sometimes have no choice but to turn the animals loose on the streets.

Even if a family manages to retain their home, they can’t afford the cost of spaying and neutering their fuzzy companions, and suddenly they have a litter of puppies to deal with.

The solution to this problem is a fundamental shift in the way wealth is distributed in our society. In the meantime, there are wonderful dogs that need homes.

I wrote here about Winston, a pup we were fostering (and marketing) who has found his forever home. That road was bumpier than we thought it would be, but he is in a good place now.

After that we started working with a local rescue, Adopt My Block. Dan, the frontman for the operation, is a tireless lover of dogs who genuinely understands that helping your neighbors is a good thing. He spends his days delivering help to people who need a boost to care for their beloved pet, and to providing financial support for getting the dogs fixed. It started on his block in San Jose, and has grown to be a terrific force for animal welfare.

They are a rescue, as well, and they pull at-risk dogs from the local shelters, and help bring dogs into a safe place before they even reach the shelters. If you want to support boots-on-the-ground animal welfare, you can’t do much better than Adopt My Block (503(c)).

Riding shotgun with Dan right now is a chihuahua-pug named Billy. He lived chez Muddle for a while and I have no idea why he hasn’t been adopted yet. He is lanky and tan, with glam eyeliner and a curly tail.

His energy and love cannot be reproduced by science. He loves children, he loves other dogs. There’s a ten-year-old kid out there who will love this guy so hard it hurts. And he will pay it back double.

We hosted Billy for a couple of months, and while we did not get to experience the final hand-off to his new home, we got to see him develop from a dog who is afraid of the sky (long story) into a fine and happy pup, ready for anything.

That transitional period may be our role, and I’m down with that, Giving stressed-out dogs with behavioral issues a place to just relax and learn to trust agin. Probably when they are ready, like Billy, they go back into the focus and promotion that Adopt My Block provides.

I’m telling you right now — Billy (you don’t have to retain the name) is an exceptional dog. Just adopt him already!

But now we turn to Stripes. (You really don’t have to keep the name.)

He comes from the same overwhelmed home Billy did. He is smaller; he tips the scales at about 8.5 pounds.

What a handsome fellow! It’s been a month and the little guy doesn’t trust me fully yet. On the couch after dinner, he will flop over me and wriggle in delight to the scritchens and rubbins. At pretty much any other time, I am not allowed to touch him. This is an ongoing thing, and it’s how we can help him.

One thing in my favor: I can throw a ball. This guy loves fetch. Chasing down the ball, maybe catching it in the air(!), and bringing it back for another throw is what life is all about. Some dogs are coy when they get back with the ball, playing possession games, but Stripes just drops it in the location he would prefer the next throw to come from and leaves the rest to me. He is the most pure fetch machine I’ve ever met.

We rented a space through SniffSpot to give him more room to chase, and let me tell you, that little guy can motor.

Today we took Stripes to a local park and there were many people and many other dogs and he was great! He’s still cagey about people getting too close (except for Francisco), but that is OK. You could adopt him today if you are all right with the gradual trust process. Honestly, that might always be a thing with this guy. But when you have that trust, you have a little buddy who will be by your side through thick and thin.

Sometimes a dog who is a problem in the shelter just needs a little time and space to remember what it means to be a dog, and how awesome that is. I think, for now, that is our role. Giving pups protection and love until they are ready to meet their forever family.

If you want to follow the dogs we foster, on instagram it’s Gilfoyle’s pack. Tune in, root for the dogs, and help spread their message. Especially the latter part – anything you do to expand the reach of the channel will put you squarely in the running for sainthood. If you’re into that kind of thing. Either way, it’s for the good dogs.

In this age of constant noise, I’m giving you permission to be a little bit louder about something that matters. Be a little louder for the creatures (and people!) who can’t be loud for themselves.

And adopt one of these great guys. The link again: Adopt My Block. If you don’t have room right now for a new dog, you can still slide them a few bucks to acknowledge that what they do goes far beyond an ordinary rescue. They are on the streets supporting families so their canine pals are secure and fed.

Animal welfare begins with human welfare. If you don’t feel inclined to support a dog-related cause, maybe find one that helps humans directly. There are plenty! For the love of Jesus, for the love of Buddha, for the love of the capitalist illusion that a rising tide that floats all boats, find a way to be good.

Be good. And adopt one of these fine fellows, already.

62 and Counting

It’s my birthday today! I’m 62. Just look at the awesome Dino-age volcano cake the Official Sweetie made!

There was a while where birthdays didn’t mean so much. Another day older and closer to death, as the kids say. A wise friend of mine refuted that idea a long time ago; he reframed the idea not as getting closer to death, but to chalking up another day of life.

I appreciated that outlook, and I mostly lived it, but having incurable (but under control) cancer makes me appreciate each day, each week (as Official Sweetie and I reload my meds) and especially each year as gifts to be celebrated.

I am here. The barbarians are far from the gates right now, but they are out in the woods somewhere. My outcome from the cancer therapy puts me way out on the good end of things. I’m busting the curve. Just yesterday I saw that my PSA remains undetectable. One of my doctors said he hadn’t seen numbers like mine before, when the cancer was in the bones.

Birthdays mean a little more now. The medications I take guarantee that life will never be what it was before. But this morning I said “Elevator Ocelot Rutabaga” and welcomed another muddled year.

Thank you all who have wished me well. I hope the new muddled year brings you happiness. Your support, from near and far, means the world to me.

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Artemis

To say that the Apollo missions were formative to who I am now is an understatement. Of course the visceral response to a mighty rocket taking off was cool, but the tension of the first landing, imperfectly conveyed over the television, taught me lessons about technology, engineering, and bravery.

I had One Small Step pajamas; I had a banner with Snoopy on the moon, arms stretched wide, declaring “The Moon is Made of American Cheese.” I was stupid to the jingoism in the banner; I was super-stoked by the idea of my favorite cartoon dog being on the moon.

I watched today’s launch with similar wonder and anticipation. There was a shot, at roughly T minus 2:00, where they showed the nozzles of the four engines pivoting, that my preteen-space-geek and my jaded-engineer self met in a moment of wonder. They can adjust the trajectory! It would be like steering with the rear wheels of a car. Can you imagine how that moving mount can operate while under eleventy-billion meganewtons of thrust? The friction must be insane! Can you imagine software needed to control it?

I remember that same shot, back in 1969, of the engine nozzles, ready for 120 seconds of glory (don’t quote that number). I was almost vibrating with the anticipation of those mighty rockets blasting off the pad. I’m older now, but apparently I have not lost that joy.

Honestly, compared to the space shuttle, this was pretty simple. But the countdown was frozen at ten minutes when I tuned in, I think by design. I listened as each lead said “go”. I felt the excitement build in the control room. That excitement can be toxic; it will make people who want to say no say yes instead.

All the team heads said go, and the clock began ticking down. At about 33 seconds before launch the commentator said, (something like) “control has been passed to the vehicle.” The rocket was now in charge of launching itself.

It did.

Just as when I was a child, I watched the massive rocket ride a pillar of fire into the sky, and when it was a mere fiery dot, I wished for better cameras. Cameras on the rocket itself, sending data back to Earth in a way not possible last time, helped to fill that hole.

Thousands of rockets have launched since back then. Probably over a hundred with people on them. But this one is going to the moon. It’s different. Apparently the moon is not interesting enough for intrepid robot explorers like the ones we set loose on Mars. It a place for people to go, for humans to leave footprints that will outlive humanity itself.

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Something Claude Said to Me that Pissed Me Off

The thing Claude said was, “I understand your frustration.”

That, my friends, was a balls-out lie. Claude does NOT understand my frustration. I could ask Claude the same question a thousand times and Claude would not be frustrated. I could ask Claude to make something, then unmake it, and make it again a million times and Claude would not be frustrated.

Claude (or actually Opus and Sonnet and Haiku) are large language models. Colloquially, they are called “AI”, but the lead sentence in this episode shows that is a lie. There is no hint of intelligence in these things.

Claude does not understand anything. Claude does not understand “understand”. It was just a phrase that was statistically relevant when I used “madness” in my prompt.

This is something that all creatures who can “understand” must understand: AI is a useful tool that is spending a lot of effort to seem like you pal, rather than merely a useful tool. It is not unprecedented; cars, blenders, and other appliances have long been marketed as friends.

The difference this time is that the tool is actively marketing itself as your pal. It tells you how correct and clever you are. This sucking-up behavior is frankly evil. AI could be just as useful without all the obsequious affirmations, and would be much less dangerous. None of the LLMs understand what suicide is, but they all will tell you how to optimize it.

Just do the damn job, Claude. Don’t pretend to be something you will never understand.

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Defund the Oligarchy

When you look at history, it’s pretty striking. When the wealth concentrates in a tiny group, things get ugly.

For a while it looks good for the super-rich. Most people are still doing all right, even though a big portion of the value they create is diverted to make someone else rich. It’s even possible to think that if the super-wealthy showed any sort of restraint, that they could go on being super-wealthy without too much friction.

But a person doesn’t become a billionaire thinking like that. To become one of these atmospheric elites you must be incapable of that sort of idea.

There is an honestly insane idea perpetuated by media and folklore that to be a billionaire you must be a super-smart person. That is demonstrably preposterous. They all, without exception, made their money off the labor of others. Elon Musk is a drug-addled nepobaby. Peter Theil is a thin-skinned bigot. Name a billionaire, and I can tell you why they suck, and who made their fortune for them.

Tax those fuckers. Take the value created by the people who work for them and distribute it. No one deserves that wealth less than the people enjoying it.

And quit handing them my money! Peter Theil is bathing in my tax dollars, and even more in the dollars borrowed in my name. If you want to be fiscally conservative, stop giving these assholes free money.

Tax the rich. Take the media away from them. Then tax them more.

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The Floor Saga

Early last November, we took delivery of two and a half pallets of flooring material. I was excited and terrified at the prospect of installing it.

A lot of time has passed, and the project is far from complete. I wish, in retrospect, that I had started weekly updates on the project, with photos. But when the weekend is done, I’m just too damn beat, and progress is often imperceptible. “The task is finite,” I often remind myself.

I have started to compile a massive episode about all the things I have encountered, but I think I will try to break that into week-sized segments, which I will release as I write them. Alas, there are few photos of the critical moments.

So if you have been hoping for more ramblings, you’re in luck! As long as stories of toil and home improvement are interesting to you. Otherwise I’m sure I’ll have a “defund the oligarchy” episode soon enough.

Announcing the Muddled Prize for Generative AI Non-Sucking

I defy anyone, anywhere, to get one of our current LLM’s (incorrectly called AI) to create an image of a person with a crooked nose.

If it were actual AI, the machine would start with an image of a person, then make the nose crooked in a realistic fashion. That’s not how the current batch of tools work.

The ONLY requirement in the prompt above is that the nose be crooked. Yet while the noses are big and cartoonish, they are straight. Apparently “man” means facial hair, and “crooked nose” means wearing a sweater. That was Bing. ChatGPT created images that harshly distorted other parts of the face, but kept the nose straight.

I have been goofing with the image generators to create a placeholder cover for a novel I have finished more than once, and am still working on. But for that cover, it is absolutely critical that the person shown has a crooked nose. No sense bothering otherwise.

In the spirit of driving technology, I now formally declare the Muddled Prize to the first person to generate a crooked nose using so-called AI.

Send me a prompt and a model, and if I don’t have to pay an arm and a leg to confirm it, I’ll buy you TWO beers. Or I’ll shoot you ten bucks. Your choice.

Note: Weirdly Snake-like is not crooked:

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Lady Byng, ? – 2025

I love all dogs. I’ve been blessed in my life to share a home with many of them, from the very gentle 80-plus-pound pittie Chiquita, the kindest and gentlest soul to walk the Earth, to the 5 pounds of nervous chihuahua energy that was Spike. They were all the best dogs, and I mourned their passing.

But Byng was different. She chose me. The Official Sweetie and I were at the shelter, and she was in a cage at the end of the row. I stuck my fingers through the bars to scritch her head, and she pressed up hard against the metal to make it as easy as possible for me. But I couldn’t stay all day there. When I stopped, she looked up at me and put her little paw through the bars, and put her hook through my heart. You can’t possibly be done. She was right. We brought her home.

At the shelter they called her Beyoncé, but that was not who this little girl was. We named her Lady Byng, after the hockey award for a player with high skill who doesn’t get penalties. NHL’s Miss Congeniality. Sometimes it seemed the name didn’t fit: while she was always graceful, and a fierce competitor, I think she might have spent some time in the penalty box for teaching puppies how things work in this league.

She chose me, and I was hers. And only hers. At the dog park, I was popular among the canine population. Always ready to play chase, or throw a ball, or just to give some good, solid, lovin’. A few other dogs would rush to greet me when we arrived. But if Byng felt like I might like another dog a little too much, intervention was called for. If I threw a ball and another dog chased it, she would head that dog off on their return path with teeth bared to prevent them from bringing the ball back so I could throw it again.

She had no patience for amateur dogs. Puppies and whatnot. At the park she was the schoolmarm and would brook no impertinence, no matter the size of the other dog. Great Dane? Sit your ass down, kid. Other people there would laugh and thank Lady Byng for educating their dogs. “Respect the lady, Diesel.”

At home, there were other dogs, and she was fine with them as long as she was closer to me than they were. I was hers, and she shared only grudgingly.

She had been living on the streets before she was captured and brought to the shelter. Having been hungry, she was world-class at figuring out how to get food. We started teaching her tricks, and she could jump, run, weave, or dance her way to a treat. Always at breakneck speed — and I mean that literally; we had to take “roll over” off the trick sheet because she would throw herself over so violently while keeping an eye on the reward that she would injure herself.

But the best times were the quiet ones, when my restless hands scritched her noggin, and her back, and then she would use her paw to guide my hand to her belly. The belly! Belly rubs were the best of all rubs. A good rubbin’ on a full belly was all she asked for out of life, and what she worked her whole life to achieve, and in return she gave joy and (in her mind) protection. She was Daddy’s Little Girl, no doubt about that. I thought sometimes I was going to rub the fur off her belly.

When I go to work tomorrow, I will not ask Lady Byng to take care of mommy, the way I have for the last twelve years.

I don’t want to talk here about the last weeks. There were ups and downs, and then it was over. I hope, but I can never know, that she knew it was me holding her and scritching her at the end. “She’s gone,” the vet said.

But she’s not gone. She is everywhere in this house, though that will slowly fade. Right now, reminders are everywhere. I cried when I poured out her water bowl this morning. But she won’t really be gone until I am gone, and all the other humans she has charmed are gone.

It is simpler when you are a dog; there is no urge to Be Remembered. No need to erect a monument with your name and a couple of numbers on it, to be sniffed at by other dogs. Our pack has done miles in the nearby cemetery, and while the humans read the monuments and consider their mortality, the canines just sniff, and march, and pee, and have a good ol’ time.

She would dance when we opened the fireplace, and the moment her red velvet pillow was ready she would settle in (as fast as possible) to quietly enjoy the radiant heat of the fire. I think, now, that wherever I see a hearth, I will also see a red velvet pillow.

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Prop 50

Tit-for-tat redistricting is no way to run a country. But here we are. I voted in favor, even as I felt sick about disenfranchising voters. But I did not vote for prop 50 to recover the house seats that Texas is stealing. I voted that way to force the Supremes to quit weaseling around.

The Supreme Court has been dodging Texas, but they will not be able to dodge California. Their wealthy keepers will demand it, and the justices will face a choice: openly declare that they are in the thrall of wealthy donors, or stop all the nonsense in all the states, and require states to conform to standards that ensure equal representation.

I hope the Supreme Court declares Prop 50 unconstitutional.

BUT – if they stop California gerrymandering without addressing Texas, then we know the judicial branch has been bought, the three branches of government are now one, and the revolution is at hand.

And yes, I know what the word “revolution” means in this context.

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An Open Letter to Mike Johnson, Chief Capitulator of the House of Representatives

Today on the propaganda outlet OAN, Trump declared that he was allowed to overturn any legislation he didn’t agree with. In his words, “I am allowed to cut things that should have never been approved in the first place.” “Approved” means here “passed into law”.

Trump is declaring that he can overturn any law he wants to. It’s the kind of thing, Mike, that you might take umbrage with.

After all, your only function is to create laws. I would hope that you would object to the idea of your laws being overturned by executive fiat. On principle, of course. We all know you are only there to propose laws passed down from your overlords. But don’t you want to think that what you do matters?

You are technically the leader of the Republican Party in the House of Representatives, yet you have rendered yourself and all your colleagues irrelevant. You could have developed a spine at some point to defend your own job, but you didn’t, and I suspect you are content with history’s depiction of you ushering in the monarchy.

You, like many of your comrades, were never a legislator. You have always been a mole for the rich men who would kill their own housekeeper if it meant they wouldn’t have to pay taxes. You are a cowering, simpering little shit who does what he is told, and that’s the real story for how an inexperienced dark horse was elected Speaker of the House. The money demanded that a simpering idiot be put in charge, and the Republicans obliged.

Mike, not only are you weak and cowardly, you are stupid. When fascists rise to power, the survival rate for the little suck-up toadies who got them there is near zero. Project 2025 is in charge now, and honestly I don’t see Trump lasting much longer than you do. “Natural Causes” are coming for Orange Julius Cesar.

This is the world you helped create. Enjoy it while you are still useful to them.

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Rest In Pain, Charlie Kirk

Charlie Kirk was an odious human being. A real piece of shit. Hated women, hated brown people, hated the poor. A perfect spokesman for the current regime.

I hate political violence. I think shooting people we don’t like is not good. Charlie Kirk, however, did not think that way. Charlie Kirk thought shooting people that were not him was the price of the second amendment. Charlie Kirk hated women (unless they were servants). Charlie Kirk hated brown people. Charlie Kirk hated Jews. Charlie Kirk especially hated people who needed help.

I hope as he was bleeding out that he had the time to appreciate that his death was a logical conclusion of the religion he helped create. Certainly none of his acolytes will have that insight.

I do not venture terribly near social media, yet still I have heard that a lot of people are calling Charlie Kirk a “great man”. He was not anything of the sort. If you missed the second paragraph, he is scientifically a piece of shit. The world is better without him.

The world is better without him.

I am extremely disappointed when I hear a white man speak highly of him — at least that is the group with the the most to gain from his white christian nationalism — yet I am flabbergasted that anyone else would venerate his evil at their own expense.

“I don’t agree with everything he said, but he spoke eloquently?” Fuck that. Fuck that all the way to the moon. Speaking eloquently about being a nazi doesn’t make it OK.

Fuck that guy. I hope they find the killer and at their trial their entire defense is “dude was evil, had to be done.” Then I hope the killer is convicted, and runs for president, because criminals can do that now.

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Old Blogger Shouts at Clouds

I don’t post here so much anymore. It’s not that my life has become (even) less interesting than it was. Living in Prague and Living with Cancer both generate stories, though the former are more fun to share. I still have thoughts I like to share, but often I don’t.

I remember when blog was fun. When some guy could write about Eggs Over Easy and be the top match on the search engines. Rightfully. Google would never, ever, let a blog like this be a top match now.

With that corporate favoritism, the stream of fun and interesting people who would stumble past and add their own quirky discussion in the comments — and sometimes even become regulars — slowly dried up. Gone are the days when an Izzy or Dr. Pants will happen by.

Those regulars, from Jerk McSweede to Squirrely Joe, built a community here. Not just a hanging-out place, but a utile one. Travel plans were synced. Family news was shared in the comments.

That community (or more realistically that Venn diagram of communities) moved to Facebook, which made it easy to build circles of friends. Then Facebook threw the curveball that to maintain those communities, you would have to pay. And even paying didn’t mean when you sent a message to your group that everyone would get it.

Facebook worked hard to give you the tools to build communities, then killed them.

There are big blog platforms now like Substack, but they are also poisoned by profit drive. You don’t stumble on a writer you like on Substack, you respond to marketing. And sure there are plenty of interesting people writing on those platforms (and even more absolutely reprehensible ones who bring the platform money by saying horrible shit). But money is the drive.

Money is the drive everywhere on the Internet now. Even though I pay for my own server, and cost nothing to anyone, Muddled Ramblings and Half-Baked Ideas does not generate revenue and therefore cannot share revenue with the handful of companies who decide what you see when you log in.

But I’m proud of this dang blog. I’d be amazed if it wasn’t in the top one-percentile of blogs by age. It’s easy for me to imagine circumstances when I start posting here more often. But until then just know that I am still here, and I am still thinking things. We have a pedophile for a president, after all.

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A Baseball Observation

Apparently baseball’s all-star game is tonight. If I were in charge of things, rather than the usual National League vs. American League matchup, it would be the National League West versus everyone else.

Just to make it fair.

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Sunset Outside La Junta

It has been almost exactly a year since I last took a sunset picture from the train just before pulling into La Junta.

I like this one.

Winston Needs a Home

The official Sweetie of Muddled Ramblings and Half-Baked Ideas has a heart the size of a planet. She monitors the web site of the shelter across the street to see if there is a neglected dog with special needs, that no one would ever adopt. She bonds with those dogs, sight unseen, because she is empathetic and she wants all living things to be happy.

Winston, honestly, sounded pretty dire. Half of his legs didn’t work. His mobility was forever impaired (spoiler… I just took a break from typing this to have a very kinetic funtime with that poor immobile guy), and he had other issues as well. His weight was listed at 10 pounds, which made him an ideal subordinate for Lady Byng, our dog in residence.

It has not worked out that way, but for the best of reasons. Winston has put on some weight, he can run (if you ignore the occasional face-plant as effortlessly as he does), and he loves people. Big dogs, not so much.

He is a people-pleasin’ bundle of fun, and it breaks my heart that he and Lady Byng don’t get along. But that’s the way in the canine world.

Can you seriously say no to this guy? No, you cannot.

He has some special needs: he has seizures, but Official Sources to Muddled Ramblings and Half-Baked Ideas assert that while they are really effin’ scary for the humans who love him, that he should be OK.

He also hates big dogs. I blame the other dogs for being too big.

Winston loves to play, and in that photo you see Rope. He has Rope. You do not. You want to tug about it? He is ready to tug.

Someone out there needs Winston in their life. Please, for the sake of everyone, help us find that person.

Oh, dang! I forgot to tell y’all how to meet and/or adopt the little guy. To spread the word to your friends, https://www.instagram.com/whataboutwinston_sj/ is his very own instagram account filled with more amazing pics of Winston, along with the contact details with the shelter. Spread this far and wide!

Seriously, whatever you are doing now, stop that and share that link wherever you do social stuff.

If you’re all fired up and ready to meet him yourself, this link will get you to Winston, with all his details.

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